Tap Tap Tap.

Let's see... so I don't know if this feeling I have is extreme numbness or the feeling of moving on. Hopefully the latter.
I got a Monroe yesterday and now my lip is swollen but it's okay because according to Jaz I look like a total badass. It occurred to me that what I just wrote made me sound like a 12 year old. I went to a flea market with Eva today and got very awesome jewelry. I have accepted the fact that I will probably never go clubbing. I miss smoking weed more and more everyday... and I have to say it takes a lot of willpower to not give in when you are watching your friends get high using a vaporizer. I am extremely horny all of the time and I need a boy. I have a list of maybe 4 hopefuls but I cannot see it working out with any of them. I am not a very coy person so they will never know I exist because I never make eye contact. I've been going to Manhattan about every day and I have to say I am very sick of St. Mark's. I have yet to get TRASHED, HAMMERED, SHIT-FACED in my 3 weeks of college life. My nose piercing is infected. Being single is not so difficult, just a really weird change of pace. I am enjoying spending time with friends but even though I shouldn't be in a rush right now like my former, I can't help but be worried that it will take years for me to meet someone new (as always) so I can feel that kind of closeness again and do all the cutesy, exploring that there is to do here and that I imagined I would be doing. Although I am very unsure of what I am doing right now with my life, school, people, etc. I know for sure that my life here in New York City is nothing like I planned or imagined it to be.