Nigger?

It's so cool to use a derogatory term that old southern plantation owners used to refer to their black slaves in order to address your friends!
Waking up this morning didn't feel as bad as it usually does, I'm not sure what the reason for that was because even though I was okay at first, the thoughts quickly began flooding in. I tortured myself today listening to Fionn Regan songs to prove to myself I could do it. And I could, but I'm sure it didn't change how I will feel if I listened to them again: awful. I've tried to keep my texts to a dull roar, sometimes it just seems like I go off because I think I have some witty, new, thought-provoking, mind-changing statement to make to him. False, it doesn't hit one nerve.
I am going to go see the Kooks tomorrow with MP, it better be good because tickets were $40. Also, I have an actual nose ring now. Also, I procrastinate too much and half-ass homework. For example, I have a speech to deliver tomorrow and even though I got lucky on Monday and got an extension, I still didn't work one bit on it. Not to mention I am a very poor public speaker. Hopefully I don't break out in welts.