Funny?

It's funny how I have a way of finding things out. You never did learn how to properly lie to me which is kinda sad, but in all truth, I don't feel mad... or sad... or even disappointed. I am just not shocked at all. I'm actually kind of happy at your misery even if it does involve you wanting another girl. I'm ecstatic actually. You deserve every complication and piece of shit that comes flying your way because of what you did to me. I don't feel like a zombie anymore, which is weird to admit. And even though I will have a relapse, I'm almost sure of it, and even though I still have some sort of pull to you... I actually feel good now, I feel okay, I've learned that for you, it's the same cycle with every girl you are interested in: ecstasy then boredom... I would not take you back and I don't love you anymore. Even though you have shaped a lot of what I am now, and I have some of the same interests as you, I've been slowly letting the idea of "you" go. Our love lasted about 5 months will trials and tribulations and then it deteriorated and you will never be that boy for me. The draw to you will soon fade. I still have the reminders of what was us... the songs and what not but you sucked all the life out of me... That's not what love is. I still hurt. But one thing I know is this, you will never find anyone to love you the way I did... ever. And ultimately, you say you are searching to be carefree, the love I gave you was carefree, something you didn't deserve; you deserve the doubts and the jealousy and the loneliness and people toying with your feelings, your heart, which is all you ended up giving me. Plus she is fucking ugly and all the attention craving, appearance alterations don't fool anyone but you. Karma does suck a dick buddy. And your idol now speaks to me in so many songs and it feels awesome. Now I have to keep this strength up.
Wheeen youuu gooo yourrr wayyy anddd I gooo miiineee!