Losing your mind for the sake of your heart.

I'm waiting for the hurt to lessen dramatically but every time I get to see something involving another girl, I die a little more inside. I'm just waiting for it to be over, I want to stop hurting. I know it's been such a long time and I know it's over-played, over-done and I know all these people know him and he's just so amusing... but I loved him first.