Hello blog

So what should I write about now that I've re-discovered you again?
I don't really know.
Sometimes I write factoids about my life.
Sometimes I write about my emotions.
Sometimes I write vaguely about the people in my life.
Sometimes I write about my opinions on things that don't really affect me... or least that don't affect me as strongly as I lead people to believe they do.
I don't know what the right way to go about this is. If I really synthesize my thoughts, I begin caring about everything that is hidden away in the corners of my mind... and this last year has taught me that this stuff doesn't matter much at all. And it doesn't make me ignorant to these things for admitting it. Sometimes I know that it is preferable not to over-analyze the living shit out of my life. I am trying to take everything at face value, and slowly go day by day.
So speaking factually... right now I am living in Queens until July 1st with Christine, Alejandro, and company. I am working an internship with the NY State Democratic Party. Most of the time, I do mundane tasks, but strangely enough, I feel like I am going somewhere. Local politics is really where everything starts, and people often ignore that. My father recently returned to Dallas from Russia on a business venture... what it brings is yet to be determined. They seem to be happier. I go to the gym almost everyday, and dogwalk on the weekends, sometimes I will dogsit. Often I am too tired to do anything very crazy on weekends, but what I've been doing thus far, I've been enjoying. I finished the school year with straight A's. Everything seems to be crawling by, and because of that, I am really learning to be alone better than I've ever had the chance to before. And not alone in a depressing or relationship way, but alone in an independent way. Because of this, I am coming to a lot of realizations, because even in repetitive, mundane, yet productive work, there are many deductions to be made about yourself and your relationship with yourself... and partly what you should/should not want or expect from other people. I think it makes you sane... depending on how you treat this time of course. I've begun to realize a lot about the people around me, my past, my family, well... everything. I'm not sure if I am deducing the right sorts of things, but the way I am handling my life now is actually making me... dare I say it... happy... or at the very least content because happy is how I will feel once things change up, in whatever way. Again, none of this is meant to be taken negatively, and I certainly don't take it this way. I miss home very much, and I miss Europe very much, and I will be a senior next year which is too crazy for me to even comprehend but right now all that matters is that I am content in the moment. And I truly am. Sure, I will still try to analyze many things, and judge many things, and regret many things but I've learned that sometimes this is okay... it just can't consume you. I feel like I am finally content with just being, and this might sound pretentious or yuppie-esque but it is really the truth. One thing that really bums me out is how I've given up writing... but I've started reading again, so hopefully something will finally flow from being immersed in good literature. Until then, I think I needed to start somewhere.