Isolation.

Plans fell through, what a shock, so here I am alone for Thanksgiving Break and probably one of 10 people on campus still. Yesterday my job interview was okay, I'm not sure if I will get the job though because they need holiday help. Every person that was there was so cliche like, oooh I'm traveling the US, or oooh I'm an actress, or oooh I work at a designer's clothes gallery. Oooh how about going to school and being dependent on your parents OVA HERE. After the interview I went to the Brooklyn Bridge and stood and just looked at how beautiful everything was. I never thought I'd go to the bridge alone because that was the ultimate romantic spot I once fantasized about sharing with blah. I didn't feel lonely. I just felt numb, both externally from the cold, and internally. I wanted to make myself feel some sort of sadness or regret but I just felt completely drained. There was no point in imagining how things would be otherwise or thinking about why it's like this. There is just no point. I never really realized how numb I was until yesterday. Then I came back to the dorm to no running water. So I ate and watched a movie and then smoked the vape and watched TV. WOO! I missed the parade this morning because I did not want to wake up. I won't have a Thanksgiving dinner tonight because I don't feel like dealing with awkwardness so time for microwave food! About 15 days until I am home. PARENTAL CONTROL TIME.
Happy Thanksgiving! ):